I miss him

I’m truly not the type that likes to share sad emotions. But this is how I’m trying to process losing my Dad, by sharing my feelings. I decided last week I’d like to go thru old photos and make photo albums and this picture just made me stop and smile and cry at the same time. Real talk here my Dad could be such a difficult stubborn grumpy man. But he also was so funny and kind and giving. And this photo just shows his joy and silly side. Also surprisingly with how his personality was, he loved taking pictures. So this shot his face is too cute as he’s posing for the camera. I’m

supposed to be sleeping after editing for a couple hours but instead I just found myself crying and staring at this photo. I miss him. I didn’t realize how much I’d miss him. I was prepared for losing him and yet I feel still so lost & trapped in a bad dream. Like I said I especially try to share joy and love here and in my daily life but today my heart just aches for the man who gave me his blues eyes, his hard working nature, his humor, his singing voice, and that smile you see in this photo. So if anything I hope by me sharing in this manner maybe I’m touching someone or helping someone else grieve more openly. And to be honest, it’s easier to share here than to people I know one on one. ❤️